Likely going to use the BRD Divine body for a glamour, but was toying around with using the yukatas instead. I probably need different boots if I use the Divine body.
What do you guys think?
The black yukata looks nice, because the brown goes with the hat and legs!
I wonder sometimes if I am ever going to get over what they did. I happened to see one of their names ‘liking’ a Facebook post by another mutual friend. Knowing I shouldn’t, I went to their page, really just to… I don’t know. See how they were doing, what they were up to. And I started remembering the good times we had, the laughter we had shared over the years. How they were there for me during some incredibly difficult times, how we had celebrated victories together (or at least, as together as we could get over the internet). They were my best friends.
And I missed them. And I started thinking about if or how we could make amends, how we could potentially repair those relationships that we had cultivated and meant so much.
But this got me to remembering when and how it ended, the lies, the talking that went on behind my back. The planning that must have happened, while I was completely unaware. The cruel things they said and the actions that the three of them, as a group, decided together upon, knowing how badly it would hurt me. I remember the thinly veiled jibes and insults aimed at me on their podcast the first show after they left. I remember how devastated I was after their betrayal, that I hadn’t seen coming in a hundred years.
And it hurt all over again, almost as much as it had back then. I hate that this still twists in my gut, but more than that, I hate that I still think about them, that I still miss them.
Sometimes I just wish I could retcon people out of my life, out of my memory.
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